My reason for again quitting the Party is to speak a truth that I have repressed in my heart for many years, which has given me constant nightmares and tormented my conscience, and which I have never told anyone: Many years ago I served in the military in the Xinjiang Autonomous Region. At that time I was forced to take part in an operation that annihilated an entire Hui village. Facing the innocent men, women, elderly and even nursing infants, I was simply unable to pull the trigger. Yet there was another, far better-equipped and more vigorous unit that had encircled us, and if we didn’t open fire, the other unit would have opened fire on us. Facing the situation where if we did not shoot we would be killed and our Hui countrymen still not spared, we opened fire whilst shedding tears. I will never forget that extreme cruelty and tragic scene, which cannot be described with words.

When I returned to the countryside, I was decommissioned and dared not to go to Hui communities. Whenever I saw Hui people I could not lift my head and was full of remorse and sorrow. I was raised as an honest and kind person, and I could have passed a happy and peaceful, normal life, but the demon robbed me this happiness I should have had.

…If gods hear my repentance, please grant me peace of mind so that I will no longer be terrified by this recurring nightmare. Today, I solemnly declare that I withdraw from the CCP and any of its affiliated organizations.

Chen Xiaoye, Chen Yucheng, Xiao yeqi

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