More than three decades have passed since I joined the Chinese Communist Party on Jan. 7, 1974. I was young and high-spirited. I wanted to devote my life to the communist ideal, contribute to the development of the country, serve the Chinese people and be completely loyal to the party. I worked conscientiously and did my best for more than 30 years, giving all I had to the party and the people. Along this path, however, I received countless persecutions and slanders. Even though I am lucky enough to survive in the end, those nightmares still visit me from time to time.

Was I wrong to consider the people? Was I wrong to consider the fate of the country? Was I wrong to fight corrupt officials? Was I wrong to consider the long-term goal of the party? 

I was wrong from the start. I had wrongly estimated the party's objectives and did not see the nature of its greed, dishonesty, malevolence and cruelty. I wrongly thought that the communist ideal could be realized in the society, that the June 4 incident in 1989 was provoked by a reactionary social class, and that killing the Uighurs was to protect the benefit of the majority. I wrongly thought persecuting Falun Gong was the proletariat battling against feudal superstition, and a great victory against an anti-government, anti-state, anti-society and anti-humanistic cult. I really was wrong, from the very beginning. I cannot, however, go on being wrong like this.

The greatest good for anyone is to correct one's mistakes, and that is what I have decided to do. I made this decision with a solemn heart, ready to pay all the consequences as if coming off a tiger's back. When I sent my wife to England to live, I knew this parting could be forever. I know that my respectful subordinates would quickly change their docile faces in competition for my position. I knew that those superficial friends of mine would immediately forget my existence and avoid me like the plague. Many numb and deceived people would ridicule me and think I deserve to suffer, and those jealous of me would clap their hands celebrating my "retribution." I have considered everything as I can see it clearly. I feel sad but not bad, for I know I am the awakened among the drunken.

Note: The complete resignation statement will be published soon.